As I blogged about here and then here, I have been fasting from sugar, one hour at a time, since August 5, 2018 at 7 a.m. I have now been fasting from sugar for eleven days, just by taking a One Hour Sugar Fast. As of this morning, I have lost four pounds. (Woot woot!)

Earlier today, while walking around the mall with Julian, a thought bubbled to the surface of my conscious: I’m ready to commit to a One Day Sugar Fast.

Eleven days ago, I was eating all the sugar: ice cream; pancakes with syrup; donuts; more ice cream; candy; birthday cake; and oh my god, give me more ice cream. The thought of giving up sugar for even one day was overwhelming. How could I get through an entire day without at least a little hit of chocolate? Impossible!

But could I live without sugar for one hour? Yes, of course. The idea of fasting from sugar for one lousy hour was so absurd, that of course I could and would follow through on the commitment. The commitment was so ludicrous, I could even extend the fast for another hour and then another and another until lo, I found myself living without refined sugar for an entire week.

Now that I have been living without refined sugar eleven days, the idea of fasting for One Day More feels so ridiculously small, that of course I can commit to it. It’s been eleven days since I had processed sugar. I can easily make it to Day Twelve.

And so, the Adventure of The One Hour Sugar Fast has turned into the Adventure of the One Day Sugar Fast. I’m not exactly sure where this adventure will take me, but I know that (a) this is something I must do and (b) I need to blog about my weight loss adventures because (c) this is about something bigger than numbers on a scale.

For the past year, I have let myself eat whatever I wanted to eat. Sometimes I wanted to eat healthy nutritious foods. And sometimes, I did not. I had to take the past year to eat all the chips and ice cream and candy and chocolate that my heart desired to show myself that I am worthy of love no matter what.

I get that now. I am worthy. Simply by virtue of being, I am worthy.

But now I am ready to level up. It’s no longer enough for me to love myself no matter how much I weigh. Now I want to love myself so much, that I take immaculate care of my body so I can feel like my best and most vibrant self.

I have the One Hour/One Day Sugar Fast is going to help me get there. I have a lot of work to do – eat more veggies! drink more water! ditch the Diet Soda! – but one adventure at a time. It’s tempting to hit the time travel button and jump to the end of my journey by making an overnight transformation, but I have seen that movie, and I know how it ends: with me having a breakdown, going back to all my bad habits, and gaining back all the weight. This time, I’m watching a different movie. It’s the Peter Jackson Hobbit movie version of weight loss. But I know that right now, this is the adventure I have to follow.

One day/dragon at a time.