This week, I talk about guilt on the podcast.

I have been hounded by guilt for most of my life. It was at its worst when I had postpartum depression, but I often felt guilty — for no valid reason! — long before I had kids. I remember feeling intensely guilty in the second grade because I could no longer read the words on the chalkboard and assumed Jesus was punishing me.

I have started examining my guilt when it pops up. I have found that beneath the guilt, there are some beliefs about my self-worth and lovability that no longer serve me. I am working on replacing those new beliefs with ones that build my self-esteem.

It felt really good to talk about guilt on the podcast.

I have written a couple of posts recently that dive more deeply into my experiences with guilt. In May, I blogged about Staying Wildly Alive Without the Motherhood Guilt. And just last week, I tangoed with the ways that Motherhood Guilt is Bullshit.

I don’t think this is the last time I will talk about guilt on the podcast. I was nervous about opening about this subject, but I’m glad I did.